Balance

Sometimes I read my horoscope. Not because I'm looking for answers about my future or trust in the magical horoscope god people (whatev), but because I think the characteristics of the signs are pretty dead on.

Yesterday afternoon while procrastinating at work, I read a few of mine as well as some of my closest friends (I have to make sure theres is accurate too). Libra's sign, as I'm sure my fellow Libra friends know, is the scale....which signifies b a l a n c e & consistency. Part of me thinks that is flat out boring. Why would I want a consistent ho-drum life? That's totally not.me. horoscope peeps. But as I've thought about it more I've realized that balance & consistency is what drives a lot of things I do and not only Libras but everyone to an extent. Different activities, things, people, environments, and atmospheres create a sort of balance that is adherently fulfilling. It seems to balance in the here and now and create consistency in the long run.

I think that a part of maturing and becoming an adult is realizing that consistency is okay. It's something I've struggled with but have come more to grip with everyday in return. It's easy to fall into craving the highs and lows of life....which is way too similar to many negative addictions. Yes, life can be spontaneous and adventurous like all the independent movie love stories I dream about, but at the end of the day....this real world day we live over and over, consistency is key. Living a consistent life requires all the things we relate to the opposite-- strength, will power, effort, humility, responsibility, and appreciation. Just think, if we can find fulfillment in the everyday experiences, how amazing will the adventures be?!

Tuesday

Lately...

All I can think about is my new house. Did I mention that I was moving? Welp, I most surely am! Just to a new place in Atlanta. After a month of stalking every posting on craigslist, I finally found the perfect little place to rent next year with two of my friendys. It's absolutely adorable and of course I can't wait to decorate. I have huge plans for our new place (pinterest helps). Too many plans really, my goal is to actually follow through with some of them :).

I am really into bunting. You know, the cute little triangle shaped banners all over blogs and Pinterest. No, I haven't actually made any yet but I plan to. We have a screened in sunroom so I figured it would be perfect for my first attempt. I can already imagine the cuteness.

I've been wanting to work out...yes, wanting to. I have nothing else further to say about this (Who am I?)

I've been on a serious budget. This include a lot of browsing and absolutely no buying. For some reason this past month has consisted of too many oops type of incidents. New tires, phone, parking tickets, TWO rents, and other minor money crises. It really hasn't been too bad. I must say that there is a definitely a different type of rewarding feeling you experience when you are living cheaply. I like it.

I am enjoying work more. Partially to my new cube (wiiiindow) but I think it has something to do with my attitude as well. And my very positive natured friend who reminds me how blessed I am on a daily basis. Positivity really works.

focus

When I put imagery to the word focus, I imagine a outrageously sized amoeba lookalike with a just one tiiiiiiiny pinpoint dot in the middle. This is my construed thought of what focus looks like......nearly unachievable. Technically, the dot is really 'focus' but my mind has misconstrued it into an image more realistic to my brain.

Are you good at focusing?! Would you call yourself a focused human being? I personally struggle with this whole focus thing. I am all over the page, or should I say, amoeba. For me drilling down to one idea or one goal seems to be so very overwhelming. I instead like to float on the ever moving outer part because it seems way more adventurous, flexible and easy going.

I say all this because I want to BE more focused. I want to work on this. I want to have particular passions and goals and in return experience a sense of gratitude in my hard workings. This mid twenties thing is pretty bittersweet. Sweet as in I'm living this free, self accountable, adventurous life with nothing to hold me back. Bitter because of the newness, expectations, and pounding to discover who you are. I guess you really can't experience either side without the other, and I'd much rather have a little sweet than none at all.

Thoughts?

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strawberry

strawberry ..... in my hair....thoughts?!

pictures via google search :)

smooth sailing

is the color on my fingers! & I love it. Do you?

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Target wins again. I go in for "necessities" and leave with an over priced bottle of fingernail polish and the latest People's Style magazine. You'd be amazed just how happy these two little purchases make me though :)

It is also the first day of summer! YAY!

I figured painting my nails this lovely summer color would be the perfect way to celebrate. I've always been more of a fall person...I love everything about it. I do however have a small period of time where I enjoy everything summer. Come August, I'll be ready for the fall crisp air. For now, I'll enjoy what is.

Smooth sailing, y'all..

Sunscreen

works....where applied. Me being the queen of sunburns, I have learned this well. My skin soaks up the sun and my poor pale skin turns a rosy tint in just minutes. But let me clarify, this is not the bronzy, beachy, sunkissed look that people desire to achieve. Think more along the lines of lobster status, "hey girl- do you know sunscreen exists?" look. It's surely not attractive.

As I've gotten older I've realized the miraculous abilities of our beloved little friend, sunscreen. I liberally apply and reapply until I finally give up, & say ok sun, you win. Whats funny is when I don't apply enough and I end up looking splotchy and covered with awkward suntan lines. Then there are the days where I think this one day will be different, and I'll leave the pool looking like a bronzed goddess or something (um, yeah right!). So, if I know that sunscreen works, and I've seen that is works, why do carelessy apply sometimes or even not apply at all? I know the outcome of both situations but choose to ignore them.

Strangely (but surely not a rarity for the analyzer in me), I see quite the comparison between my decisions in life and my sunscreen tactics. Being humanly & imperfect, obviously every choice we make will not be the right one. But we can do everything we are capable of to achieve positive outcomes, right? So what's the secret? Or is there even a secret? Instead of searching around looking for answers what if they are right infront of you? Such a simple concept, but all too often it is overlooked.

Everything that goes into a life of pleasing God has been miraculously given to us by getting to know, personally and intimately, the One who invited us to God. The best invitation we ever received! 2 Peter 1:3

Like sunscreen & the evident outcome of its use, we also know the way to living a life of peace but instead do everything we can to complicate the process resulting in a life of repetiveness and worry. I surely don't have it all figured out, but for some reason this past weekend inbetween nursing sunburns and small hangovers, the two become closely related in my mind. What if we replace sunscreen with God or any other concept we know to be good for us? ____ works, when applied. Seems so simple but something I need to be reminded of often. So today I 'm thankful for many things, but especially for this small little comparison God has used to tug on my heart strings and get me thinking.

And for a little comical relief......

taking it back to 1999

:)

Annoyed

bc...

1) I left my phone at home.

2) I can't "pin" things @ work.

3) My picture isn't working below (I fixed it -YAY!) Now how do I get rid of the silly border?!

which leads me to another point......Can some blogger pro give me some tips or guidance to getting your pictures to look like you want them to in your blog? I way too often find that I've spent thirty minutes playing with the html code in hopes of my picture fitting within my borders, etc. And now that I'm adjusting to my mac my struggles have at least doubled. Any suggestions?!

4) Billy (my emailing/chatting buddy) is mad at me.

Work(No phone + No gchatting) = miserable

5) I thought of the cutest baby name & I can't remember it.

You don't understand though, it was unique and the cutest. This makes me really sad.

But hey, It's Friday! So it's all okay :) Happy Friday Y'all!